Tuesday 24 November 2009


The madness that goes on in my head.

Trying to document a slice of my thoughtStream...
(Note, Left to right does not matter, the streams are simultaneous, sometimes even the top-bottom precedence may overlap.)


Stream 0
(Conscious 1)

Stream 1
(Conscious 2)

Stream 2
(visual - thought)

Stream 3
(auditory)

Right, am I writing it down correctly?
Stupid TDs and TRs, Google still couldn't refine their interface properly!
Forest night, superimposed with a google logo
Like a night in the forest

yeah, it's hard to keep track of this mess
Yeah this is tough, ooh look, my neighbour is staring at my screen
Mountains, a tangle of light-paths, buzzing with thought motes
Like the mountains in springtime
sometimes it's parallel processing
Hide? Don't bother? ... Don't bother.
ahh, walk in the rain, memory recall! Tangle of lights straightening, fading
like a walk in the rain
other times it's time-sharing... freaky!
Heh, what if that was the boss?
stuck in memory recall
superimposed image of boss
like a storm in the desert
Boss? Where is he? Nope, not nearby...
Meh, still wouldn't have bothered...
underwater... (NSFW)
like a sleepy blue ocean
Why is that guy covering his face with a hanky?
Sit properly, is the headphone wire stuck?
(more NSFW)... headphone wire, extreme close up.
you fill up my senses
Cold? Swine flu? right... funny.
where is it stuck? examine, there! yank yank!
momentary image of a pig, then masked doctors in lab coats
come fill me again...
put on your glasses, you'll fry your eyes looking on the screen!
Yeah, like the glasses would help if it's bound to happen.
the live version's video, John Denver looks weird...
applause eh? Right! live version... coo!
Time-sharing again... How is one supposed to actually represent this?
That sounds fatalistic, how unlike me!
accidents, death, inevitability, 2012 movie clippings.
Jazz, nice,
A tree with the conscious node animated in time?
2012? That's utter crap!
Fretboard fingering positions,
mind following the guitar
Secondary streams?
They come and go...
Not 2012, I mean yes that too, but timeline?
Animated graph with flickering nodes... tree without a beginning or an end...
guitar...
Yeah, there will be only one 2012 the year
What aboout alternate date systems?
calendar, 2012, blur, Jesus Christ, blur, flickering 7 segment displays...
Enter drums, guitar still being followed... talking... talking??
Damn, I'm losing coherence.
talking to me? Nah...
blur, colleagues behind head, fretboard, blur... too many images too fast.
Huh? colleagues talking... guitar...
Okay, stop, enough, enough. Stop
Write that down you fool...
Blog page with this post... random reader.
lyrics... mind not following...
Stop that music
Stop writing too...
Desktop... winamp... meditative white...
momentary blank...

There are many more subtler substreams and momentary flashes, can't follow... too fast, too fine, and most importantly, too weird (sick? raw? vulgar? choose a word).

NesQuarX
What? Don't you ever follow your own thoughts from a Third Person POV?
Huh?
Oh...

7 Attacks:

Jennie said...

This crap is really awesome.. not much w.r.t it's sequence but w.r.t the "third person" observer's analysis!

NesQuarX said...

:D That's the thing which is the toughest to be.

Quintessence Of Illusion said...

wohoooo................the post is as unconventional as you are............kudos...

NesQuarX said...

Kudos? Where? WHERE? I want a kudo!

Quintessence Of Illusion said...

hahahahhahahahahahha.............i meant kudos to you..........

Nightwing said...

nice going...must have taken a lot of time and hard work too get this done..

NesQuarX said...

Time, very less, this table represents a slice of hardly a minute... Took a few more minutes to actually unravel and pen down. But yeah, did take an insane amount of thinking to actually identify the individual threads and streams and note what they were thinking... in the same head.

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